It's funny how we can't get used to the fact that life has seasons. By the time you have one "figured out," you are ushered into a new one. So incredibly good for us, but bittersweet and unsettling at the same time. And yet perfectly crafted by God's genius.
I am in the motherhood-is-God's-bootcamp season. My flabby attitudes and self-dependencies are showing up like unwelcome pounds on the scale.
The everyday looks something like this:
Weekdays start (hopefully) an hour and a half before the boys are up. That time is filled with working out, showering, time with the Lord....and often one of the three somehow gets crowded out. A work in progress.
At 7:30--it's on, baby! Both boys are up, the toddler has an attitude about what's being served for breakfast and the baby is trying to ingest that small foreign body on the floor.
Since Edmund's birth, I have dealt on and off with irrational anxiety (though isn't all fear irrational?), and the battle can biggest in the mornings. In those times, I'm holding onto God's truth, reminding myself of what His word says, His whispered love. Sometimes I text or call a friend and we pray. God is moving mountains in my heart as I've realized how afraid I have been of being broken or vulnerable. It's sweet to know that I am free to fail. God's world is not rocked.
The mornings FLY by. Sometimes we get out, or maybe I do housework and we play inside. Edmund is SO HAPPY and occupied now that he can crawl. He and Peter are entertaining each other more than ever...I love spotting Peter putting his big legoes together ("look, it's a rwocket, mommy!") with Edmund right next to him, chewing on his own lego (the big ones, of course!).
Before we know it it's lunchtime (two boys eating at the table now! so fun) followed by naptime. Currently, there is only one hour in the afternoon when both boys are napping. In that time, I'll take a nap, catch up with a friend on the phone, or do housework that's difficult to accomplish when the boys are up. Maybe I'll take some "me" time and blog or edit pictures. Which typically translates to about one paragraph of a blog post written or 2 pictures edited by the time something else comes up. Sometimes one of my single girlfriends will come over for coffee while the boys sleep...which is a breath of fresh air!
Which brings me to another part of this season of life which I LOVE. Our lives are full of people. Sometimes folks drop by in the afternoon. Often there's a friend at the dinner table. One of the neighbors rings the doorbell. And then there are the close friends I keep in touch with over the telephone...not to mention our large families. This constant-flow-of-people aspect of our lives is an answered prayer, something we've hoped for in different seasons but haven't had. I'm really grateful for it. And it is such an awesome thing to have a house to host people in now!
The evenings are full of dinner, catching up as a family, clean-up, working in the (future) garden, walks, baths, books. If we don't have company, then there is approximately 1 hour of time after the boys are in bed/kitchen cleaned before Andrew and I start heading in the direction of our bed. Starting next week, Andrew will have to leave the house by 5:30 am for work, so we aim for a early bedtime.
And that's a pretty accurate picture of "why I don't blog much lately." And I'm ok with it. I really enjoy the creative expression of blogging, IF flows with our life and can be put on the back-burner when needed. Which is why I am going to bring Try New Adventures Thursday to a sweet finish (or pause, or whatever) for now. Lately, if I have time to write a blog post, I've been desiring the freedom to write whatever and whenever I want. Too often I am pounding out a TNAT post on Wednesday night past bedtime, or on Thursday morning while the boys try to climb all over me or eat the ethernet cord.
And as long as I can keep the baby from drooling on the modem, this blog isn't going anywhere. I hope you won't, either...even if I pop in and out a bit unpredictably!
P.S. I am quieter on social media these days, but Instagram is the exception. If you want a daily dose of our adventures, follow me...I'm AliciasHomemaking. :) There are lots of chubby-cheeked-boy pictures to be had.
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